I Have a Fridgeful of Dopamine

 

The helicopter parks
in the first compartment of the freezer
It never takes off
I have a fridgeful of dopamine
and still can't make the propeller turn

 

I like to stick my head into the fridge
holding my breath, looking for a sky and a sun
They've been frozen
A bird in the position of falling
level with my ears

 

My face freezes too
It has lost its expressions
But I need to imagine a wind
comes out of my nostrils and
will not freeze
The wind
will bring me a reticent
man
who, like me
overthinks
and never shows it

 

Our brains
are not enough
They frost up often
covered in a layer
of thin crystals
which sticks too tightly
to our short breaths

 

 

我有一冰箱的多巴胺

 

直升飞机停在

冷冻室的第一格

它从来没有起飞过

我有一冰箱的多巴胺

也没办法让

螺旋桨转动起来

 

我经常把头伸进冰箱

憋着气寻找天空和阳光

它们都冻住了

鸟保持着坠落的姿势

与我的耳朵平行

 

我的脸也冻住了

没有了表情

但我要想象有风

从鼻孔里吹出

且不会冻住

风会带来一个沉默

的男人

他和我一样

想得太多而从不

表现出来

 

我们的脑袋都

不够用

时常结霜

蒙在上面那层

薄薄的晶体

总是跟我们急促的呼吸

粘连得太过紧密

 

 

Translated by Yun qin Wang